Slight update: I got the job! I've been living in San Francisco for a bit and I'm actually super happy out here. I haven't been working on my personal projects nearly as much as I'd like to but it's still going well.
With that lack of time I've been noticing myself deprioritize certain things. The gym, my art, exploration... this blog. There are highs and lows to all things in life, but I think the important part is how many times you get back up rather than how many times you fall.
I had a rock-climbing project I've been working on, it was a slab V5. I had been working on it for my seventh session today, over the course of 3 weeks, trying dozens of different styles to climb it. Each day I came in knowing that this was going to be the main project I would be sending. I fell so many times, scratching my face or hitting my chest. Each time I met new people that would be attempting the same problem, and we'd talk about how we're gonna work it. Out of the people that would come work on it, I had only seen three people reach the top; everyone else would try it for a session or two then walk away to work on sometime else. I didn't want to walk away though, this was MY problem to work and I wanted to reach that top. I had some people cheering me on, and others telling me to give up. But I had to get it.
I started stretching for this climb, my legs couldn't bend to get the placement I needed so I started stretching my legs each session and I noticed my flexibility improving after each time. The progress wasn't fast either. I would fall at one part a dozen times before I finally made the next move, but that's part of the process.
But after nearly 100 attempts and 7 days. I finally reached the top, and it was euphoric. I felt like I was a whole new person.
I haven't written a post in 7 months, but that climb gave me the courage to write one. I felt like I wouldn't have tiem to write it, yet I could sit down watching videos. I have so many things I want to work on, and I've been waiting for a moment or some sign of when to start. That V5 was my sign. The moment is always going to be now, because you never know when the route is going to change on you and you lose that opportunity.
The time is there to do anything, you just have to take it.