Ok, I know it's gonna seem like I've gone totally off my rocker at this point but I swear I'm still sane... probably :D
I've gotten through quite a few interviews though so far! I've gotten interviews with 4 separate companies and for one of them I might actually be going onto my 8th interview which is a tour of the facility next week. Oddly enough telling a job that I might be working for another company seems to really motivate them to interview me! It feels so insane to go from being totally and helplessly unemployed applying to every job to actually getting interviews, the feeling is almost indescribable. I know I shouldn't put all my eggs in this basket, but mentally I already know I've commited to these jobs.
I'd be moving out to San Francisco, which would honestly be an amazing adventure and I can't wait for it! Each of the jobs has something special about it and I'd love to work at any one of them... but there is one in particular that I want :3. I can't tell y'all on here what company in case anyone creeps on me :O
I still wonder though if this is how I should be handling a new job. A part of me feels like I still haven't beaten or worked through the part of me that is linking my worth to my income so heavily, and instead I'm avoiding the issue by simply getting a job to feel worthy again. Is it just the capitalistic society that we live in forcing us to evaluate ourselves based on how much revenue we can accumulate, or is it something more innate?
I'm not sure, but hopefully I'll get some time to think about it more while employed!